Statutory Warning : Wishes May Come True !

My mind is like a football field right now.  And there are like 5 footballs and 10 Navendus playing for an equal number of goal posts. 

Its like even while I write this blog, I can think of at least 2-3 more titles depending on which goal it talks about.

Now, in order to bring some order to chaos, lets begin with (in advertising lingo.) Top-Of-Mind recall :)

Umm...some desires, which just refuse to die down, and as soon as I come from a 'teerth', they manifest in some form, subtle or gross...almost immediately...POP..like that !

On the one hand, its an instant gratification, on other is fear and guilt of satiating something which ULTIMATELY I am not or do not want but have to go through in order to get over it.

Now inherently there is nothing wrong in it but it is the scum attached..kam, krodh, lobh, moh...ahankaar which makes everything wortless and then the perennial feeling which emerges on certain occasions, and of late has been very pronounced...bole to...

kitne janam

kitne relations

kitne problems

kitne solutions

kitne ram

kitne ravana

par sab wahin ka wahin

How many more before we move on ?

And in that mindset, it's like you are lost in your own dhun, and whatever happens around seems immaterial and inconsequential, you are detached, and THAT IS WHY you can enjoy it fully for you come without expectations or burdens to that moment/situation and enjoy for whatever it is and give your all too, for you hold on to nothing...there is nothing to hold on to! Neither you nor that is around... drops evaporating on a hot metal plate..

And in that mindset, you wonder whether to focus on personal/professional aspirations which seem so ephemeral or live dreamlike and lost in a reality which is normally accepted  ....

And then personal goals...again a many pronged question which can lead you to X no. of directions, but in my current state, I think only about enjoying NOW and that will dominate, I am not interested in changing anything or anyone...

But even talking about enjoying now can mean creative/intellectual kick or something more geared towards self-actualization...

For when I see presentations like a senior was giving on Branding..I know what we will gimme a kick! Now I dun wanna CHANGE anything or anyone but I know what I can do well and in the long term that's all that I want to do.

Or, do I ?

So where were we ? Which ball...which field..which goal? Whose playing?

Disclaimer: The title of this blog has got nothing to do with the content or it's direction or flow...like many Hindi movies :)